I know I skipped yet again a couple of weeks... maybe even more then a month, but guess what? I am so close! This pregnancy has been crazy! Ups and Downs and twirls and spins, but it's almost over! It's almost time for my life to completely change and I literally can't wait. I am so impatient, you have no idea. I've been trying so many "natural" labor inducing things but ain't nothing working. I feel like all of that is crap! But, I'm still doing them.... I'm sick of the "oh hunny, she'll come when she's ready?" Well guess what? I'm ready!!!! Towards the end of pregnancy, you start to get a little crazy. I was crazy before so my level has increased more. Throughout my whole pregnancy, I felt that God had been teaching me patience, and there was nothing I could do so I had it. But with the finals days/weeks of a pregnancy everything is out the window! Forget about it ! I'm so done haha (p.s. I know I'm being dramatic) As the days countdown, I decided to let my two forms of favorite social media on rest. (insta and facebook) they just make me even more anxious and jealous of people's lives, because I went through a phase of mine sucking. But how can it suck when the love of my life is coming any day now? I know that my birth and even pregnancy was a surprise when I was being born, so maybe my baby is doing the same. It would just be nice to have a head's up because I am still working and going to school. The earlier is the better for me, so I'll just be here waiting Kaia. haha I haven't fully packed my hospital bag yet or her bag, I haven't had that nesting feeling yet of I need to get everything done. I just have been in chilling mood. I am moody, irritable, crampy, and waiting for contractions to start. I have another doctors appt this Tuesday so I am going to see my progress then. Last doc appt, I was for some reason measuring slower now. Meaning that I was a 34 when I should of been 35 ... so that was weird. Anyway, I'm excited for this appt and I have been going by myself which I like as well. Sure, I would like company but I rather just be totally comfortable and get in and get out. Anyway, because that time is approaching so quickly, I'm giving you an exclusive pregnancy pic of me.
(I think I was like 34 or 35 weeks?) That's me doe!
I know, I know... "you're so small" "OMG" haha my doctor doesn't see me pushing out anything bigger then a 6 lb baby, which is totally fine with me because I'm not trying to tear or anything. Also, here's a pic of baby girl's closet.... getting fuller and fuller. AHHH I'm so excited.
I literally cried today because I just can't wait to have her in my arms. I know that she is just going to be the best thing that has ever happened to me. I'm not sure what the lesson for all of this happening is yet... but I just know I can't wait to have my best friend in my arms. I have always taken care of people, but I feel that it is totally different when it's your own daughter. I also have always felt a disconnect from my family, like the "black sheep" or just don't really feel like I fit in sometimes, so I'm just so excited to never make her feel that way. I promise that I will provide for her as much and hard a s I can. I promise to be sensitive of her feelings and always communicate with her. I promise to treat others well for her. Just waiting for you Kaia. All you.
I just had to add this little video of my niece Skylar. I think she is excited for Kaia to and thinks she is "so nice" :) This makes me so happy.
How Far Along?: on my 37th week
Total Weight Gain?: I'm about 117 now
Maternity Clothes?: haha nope. I think I got one pair of maternity leggings as a gift but thats about it
Stretch Marks?: ok, yeah. It's bad :(
Sleep?: ehhh, I wake up a lot
Movement?: She reminds me she's there yup. Still my favorite thing though. Hiccups, I could do without
Food Cravings?: oranges and salad are my thing right now
Queasy/sick?: Occasionally, but not as bad as the 1st trimester
Gender?: My baby girl
Labor signs?: Cramping, sharp back pains, and other weird things.
Symptoms?: can I just say I feel like crap all the time now?
Happy/Moody?: Content
Relationship Status?: Single
Miss anything?: I miss my body :(
Best Moment of the Week?: a particular text ;)
Looking forward too?: Finally meeting my daughter. Soon Kaia come !!! :)
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