Alright world, here it is, : I'm 21, single, and pregnant! You now know more then my extended family and even some friends! I figured I just need to embrace it and that's what I am going to do. My life is not going as planned, my life seems like a hot mess, my life has taken a course that I, nor the baby's father, was prepared for, and my life is simply CHALLENGING (right now). But you know what? I've realized that it is OKAY. I am going to be okay! My ex is freaking out right now and by freaking out I mean: we're not speaking to each other, he's uncomfortable around me, it seems that he wants nothing to do with me or the kid... and you know what? That's fine too. His life is changing, maybe not physically like my body, but I know he had dreams and goals that have been taken away as well. I just need to give him space and time, till we can at least start communicating again. Eventually, maybe, we can be friends. We were both young, dumb, and in love (well I guess one of us were...). Now, it's Go Time!... I have to grow up. I have to keep healthy, I have to move on in life whether it's with my kid's father or not. and you know what? It's okay. I haven't always thought this way. At first, I was HECKA scared. I started looking for places that my ex and I could live, I started looking for jobs to help pay for this place, I started looking into civil marriages and the steps towards a temple marriage... I thought through it all! I started freaking out even more when the baby's father told me he would never marry me. That was the second red flag in that my life is not going the way planned. Yet, throughout everything and with the help of my friends, family, and Heavenly Father, I have this piece of hope and faith THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY. Thanks for reading/checking out my blog and I hope you enjoy living through my pregnancy and current life situations with me!
XOXO -BTO
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